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I wish I had a happy post.  I wish things were going better.  I have been posting less and less because I haven't had anything good to say really.  I am in a rough patch.  It happens every few years.  I will rise from the ashes again soon, I am sure.  I always manage to do so.

Other than my attitude, things here are good.  My health is really concerning me.  I am angry for treating my body so badly.  I am sad that getting better, healthier takes so much effort and time.  I would love some instant results please.

BUT,  I am ok.  We are ok.  You're ok.  Wait, I think I have that book around here somewhere.  A garage sale find.

My sleep study results were cruddy.  I stopped breathing 187 times in 5 and a half hours.  My O2 saturation went into the low 70s multiple times an hour.  I am heading back to the sleep center tonight for another night hooked up.  This time they add the CPAP machine and adjust it while I am sleeping until it is enough pressure to keep my airway open.

Many people claim that CPAP is a miracle.  It is life changing.  Vast improvements in mood and health.

I hope so.  My depression has recently required a med change, I feel terrible all the time, I have a hard time staying awake in the daytime.

Wish me luck on round 2 of my quest for sleep.