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Today I had to do something that placed me firmly in adulthood and responsibility. I am 36, the mother of four children. I have owned and sold homes. I have been married and divorced. I was still not prepared or old enough for this.

I had to sign an authorization to cremate my Nana. I am her next of kin. After the paper was faxed to me, I couldn't look at it for a while. It was just too much. The paper is, of course, very detailed for liability reasons. It is technical and clear. And ugly ugly ugly.

I had to read it. I can't sign something legal and foreign without reading it. I feel weird everytime I think about it.

Next step is deciding if I can make the trip for her service.