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Immediately after my heart cath, last Wednesday I experienced a few moments of shimmery vision and we attributed it to the dye or lack of sleep.  I didn't think about it again until Monday evening when it happened again.

I had a thirty minute issue with vision.  I was seeing a c shaped rope like thing.  I couldn't look at it directly as it was in my left peripheral vision.  It appeared to be like a checkerboard pattern that rotated.  It is very hard to explain.  I called my mom and googled it and came up with a visual migraine.  I did have a slight headache when my vision cleared, but it only lasted ten minutes or so.

Tuesday afternoon the vision thing started again.  This time I felt not well about five minutes into it and I got a bit scared.  I had to lay down and called my mom again.  This time it turned into a horrific headache that lasted from just after 7pm until 2am.  A real migraine.   Oh.    My.   Goodness.  I have never felt so incapacitated.   Nausea and sensitivity to light, wow!

I hope that was my one and only migraine.  I feel so terrible for people who suffer these on a regular basis.  I am hoping mine was because I had been without my CPAP  machine for a few days. This adorable dog ate my mask.  Then he ate the $40 used replacement mask I lucked into.  Insurance won't pay for another $300 mask for many months and a new replacement part is $70.

My mom bought me another used mask today.  She is a lifesaver.  I napped a bit earlier and can't wait till tonight to sleep a full night again with the CPAP.    We will be having a dog funeral if he finds this one I have hidden in my dresser drawer.

 Ozzfest is selling tickets to the Hartford CT show for $10 dollars today only and Nico can't understand why I won't buy them and drive 14 hours away to take him. He says, "The Monica from the 80s would have done it!"

Well, I survived! The procedure was not as bad as I anticipated. They did find a coronary artery anomoly. But, it was in such a difficult place that they were unable to access it to discover the origination point. The doc that did the cath wants to confer with the other doc and review all the scans before they tell me what they think. Soo, I know more than I did.

I figure I will know the full information in a week or two.

I feel mildly sore at the entry site, but that is all. I have to avoid bending or lifting for a few days.

Thanks so much for the encouragement and kind thoughts!!

In six hours I will leave to have my heart cath done.  I should be asleep right now, but can't.  I am worried.  All day long people have been assuring me.  "Everything will be alright", they have said.  And in all likelihood, they are right.  I am just worried about that small margin of what if.  Worry is normal and I am trying to just acknowledge it for what it is and move on.

Tonight was not an easy night.  My sons are worried too and were not being kind to each other.  One of my children has been having a rough time of it lately and was really being defiant tonight.  I tried to have a calm discussion with him to get to the root of the problem  Hormones, puberty, what??  He calmly stated that his main issue is that he just doesn't like me.

Ouch.

He and I have butted heads for years, our personalities are very different and we struggle with that.  I told him that I didn't like my mom either for many of my teen years.  He says he has never liked me and mostly likely never will.

I wish they could fix that kind of broken heart tomorrow.

I hope to be back here posting that all is well tomorrow night, but if I am not, don't panic.  They might keep me overnight or more.

Thanks for all the well wishes.